Under the Bohemian Moon

Eternity Waits

2009-07-23T21:08:00.000-07:00

This is a song I composed when I was meditating on 1 Corinthians 15:58 that says, "Stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain."

(Verse)
Be strong
Be immovable
Always give your all
For nothing
You do
Is ever useless

Be strong
Be immovable
Always give your all
For nothing
You do
Is ever useless

(Chorus)
[For] no eye has seen
No ear has heard
What God has in store for you
For nothing you do comes in vain
So keep on runnin'

Soon, very soon
You take the prize
What God had in store for you
Eternity waits for you
My child

(Alternate Chorus)
[For] no eye has seen
No ear has heard
What I have in store for you
For nothing you do comes in vain
So keep on runnin'

Soon very soon
You take the prize
What I had in store for you
Eternity waits for you
My child

(Coda)
[For] no eye has seen
No ear has heard
What God has in store for us
Eternity waits for us
My friend

Patienty Waiting

2008-12-28T04:19:00.000-08:00

Twenty-four months and counting
My love for you grows bigger, deeper
Every minute passing by,
Every smile you grant this weary and undeserving soul

Lord, I have nothing but humble gratitude, solemn praise
For this beautiful thing You have made
May the good Lord bless our hands
As we walk towards the consummation of our love

Till that day when I will finally call you mine
And you call me yours
I will patiently wait
My love, my best friend

Asaph Remix (Psalm 73)

2007-05-31T00:37:00.000-07:00

Who dares to speak?
Who dares to look?
Through the eyes of the insignificant
By the mouths of the poor

Birds clamour when the pool is full
Who ever stays with an empty dish?
We are all chess pieces, perishable
Silenced by the hand of flattery

Lord, may give ear to these words!
As I utter tearless cry
May Your justice prevail
When the wicked seemed unshaken

May the Lord bless those who came to Your servant's aid
May they find favor in Your sight
But those who smoke arrogance
May You put to shame

Whom have I in heaven by You?
And besides You, I desire nothing on earth
My flesh and my heart may fail
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever

But as for me, the nearness of God is my good
I have made the Lord my refuge
That I may tell of all Your works

Home

2006-08-31T01:26:00.000-07:00

Night has past, darkness gone
Slumber is a time of searching and infinity
I wake up amongst legions but yet alone
Alone because I chose to be
For feet soiled cannot enter Thy house
Yet Thy shores yearns for a son
Endless sunsets and vast horizons calling
Come home

Untitled

2006-08-07T00:24:00.000-07:00

A retreat to the calm
I pour my soul from within me
Bathe in the stream of light
of His perfect and soothing presence
'Til it leaves me refreshed
Still wanting more and still more
May it be my dying day
Be same as what it is today
When You made known Yourself
As I retreat to the calm

Discontent

2006-04-21T01:38:00.000-07:00

I don't want to be a person who just happened to be an avid fan of Christian songs
I don't want to be a person who just happened to be a jack of all trades
I don't want to be a person who just happened to be raised on empty religiosity
I don't want to be a person who just happened to be cowardly peaceful toward others

I don't want to be a person who just happened .
I have a calculated purpose, divine at that.

I want to be someone beyond the perceived norm
I want to be a genuinely real, upright and blameless
before Him and Him alone
So I prostrate in humble gratitude, grateful humility

To make a difference just as He made a difference
No matter how small, as long as it matters to Him
Lord, that's what I want to be
From glory to glory change me that I may share Your suffering and glory

Untitled

2006-04-12T08:06:00.000-07:00

I am delusional
Boxed in a room of dysfunction
It's a man for himself
A conspiracy to survival

Looking out the window, hoping
Towards bright horizon
May You come so quickly
And sweep us away

Untitled

2006-02-14T21:38:00.000-08:00

In the man lives the heart
The wellspring of the thoughts of the heart
I wouldn't know how else to call it
Feelings but in a valid sense
for feelings are devious things
Concepts that blur the mind

I am baffled by its schemes
For it pounces at a time unfortune
On a time of false certainty it makes its kill
As past once thought dead rises from the grave
Now alive and burning
as tempered as a bull raging wild

A pinch of confusion sent to taunt the mind of the man
He asks "What is this?"
A desire to take what is taken from him
Perhaps the veil that once blinded his eyes
has been removed to see what I did not see before
All it took was another heart to whisper subtly

Vindication

2005-11-17T22:56:00.000-08:00

How long should I take this?
How long must I be put to shame?
You have made me a laughing stock to my self;
A ridicule among the dead.

You said it is not for sin that I am tested,
instead You are teaching me a virtue.
But what virtue must I learn
that You would cause the life to be snuffed out of me;
To be doused by the cold and careless waves?
Oh Lord, I cannot understand
why I must go through such beating.

I could meddle with prostitutes,
And turn away from Your harsh chastisement;
Or move far away where my children cannot find me,
But in this battle I am bound to lose by opposing You.

It is You I fear, therefore I love;
It is Your unfailing love
That keeps me running back to You,
Your faithfulness proving how fragile and foolish a creature I am.

Fill me with Your understanding;
Let me weep on Your shoulder,
Somehow this agony would be eased;
That when again I stretch my wings I will not fear,
And on that day I will put my trust in You alone.

2005-10-14T05:30:00.000-07:00

Dreams closing in.
His mind aches endlessly thinking of her;
His heart breaks knowing she is beyond his reach

Waiting.
Dreams closing in,
Penetrating his weary soul

Soon he falls into slumber,
Hoping another Day grants him fair love.

Lamay

2005-08-07T02:04:00.001-07:00

Dawn is at hand
Still Slumber fails to conquer
My tireless Spirit

Seconds pass like hours
In the stillness of Night
Melting darkness into light

Dawn is at hand
Still Slumber fails to conquer
My weightful tired Body

Opportuny is precious
But so is Strength
Sleep, come now and make your kill

Dawn is at hand
Still Slumber fails to conquer
My mind that utter Chaos

Darkness slowly retreats
From the new day ahead
Night is wastefully spent

2005-06-29T14:30:00.000-07:00

Where can I go
Where my heart's thought is valid?
I am broken
Tasting my own bittersweet medicine.

Am I entitled to be happy?
Am I entitled not to be alone?
I am facing a cold stone wall
Whispering thoughts my mind can't conceive.

I buried myself in words
Written by people enticed with themselves
In this hollow cold space
Hearing dirges I can only hear.

My dear traveller, I wish you can feel my innermost being
Feel the deep cut thru my chest
I have proven silver cannot satisfy
The deepest tragedies of my heart.

Sailing Home

2005-05-08T00:00:00.000-07:00

Sailing home at last,
Morning breaks to shades to light;
Foreign lands bid farewell,
Hoping to glance at my face one last time;
Tomorrow holds uncertainty.

But my trust is in the Lord, my hope and my fortress.
In Him all things are sure,
All things already hoped for.

Sailing, I am sailing home
Sailing, I am sailing home.
With Christ in my vessel I can smile at the storm,
Until He takes me home.

Acacia Tree

2005-04-28T12:15:00.000-07:00

Acacia tree, spread thy arms above me,
Ease my agony under thy leafy crown;
I am God's chosen.
In the evening as I dream,
Fold thy hands as a prayer for me;
And rest as the dark passes by.

Inner Ramblings in A Terrace at Noon

2005-02-12T12:46:00.000-08:00

Reflecting on my spiritual life, my character, my leadership, my romance, my future
Thinking what can I do, what I should have done, what I would do
I feel heavy, frustrated, content, calm, eager, limited, anticipating
Waiting for a friend, a hand to reach out in the midst of pawns
To see me as I am, not what I do or what I have or what I am supposed to be
I am a creature longing to be set free, free as a bird
At this moment, I sail alone in this life-voyage, composed yet pointless
Today I eat, tomorrow I die. Life is but a chasing of a wind.
I dream of shore, my Promise Land. But no land at sight…
Waiting, watching from a distance, putting meaning on what seems to have none
I feel insignificant inside my cloak of pride. My life would be a waste, if not for You.
I am learning to put my faith not on people of weak spirits but to You
“Search me, Oh God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts.”

Wineskins

2004-11-30T01:11:00.000-08:00

(A lament)

Is this all there is?

Is faith not valid?
Faith to cling to an Unseen Force
Unseen but made Himself known
Faith to step out of your foothold
Even you venture into high cliffs of uncertainty
Is faith not valid?

Is love not valid?
Love to see not savings
But a compassion to save the soul
Love compelled to serve
Even washing the filthiest feet
Is love not valid?

Is forgiveness not valid?
Forgiveness that never holds back
Healing scars that deepens our brotherhood
Forgiveness that never closes doors
Even wounds are opened seventy seven times
Is forgiveness not valid?

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Is this all there is of You, O God?
Make Yourself known
That every people will know that You are just
And has never forsaken His people

Throw another shade of light
A light that will make men see
That You are a God who understands
Every thoughts and actions of a man

Lord, in my waking days
May I never sin to Thee
Establish Your kingdom, O God
As You live Your will in me

Old Man, Where Are You Going?

2004-09-28T21:25:00.000-07:00

Old man, where are you going?
Maybe you're going where I'm going
Where earth is floor and sky is roof
Can I hitch a ride?

Please don't be too hasty
I'm not in a hurry
Every minute, every second
I want savor it while present

Please don't be too dim
Dark clouds are already forboding
On the other hand the land is dry
So rain fall down and quench the earth!

Please don't be too serious
The earth is round and we're just going in circles
Look at the roadside
Stop and smell the roses

Life, where are you going?
Maybe you're going where I'm going
Where earth is floor and sky is roof
Can I hitch a ride?

2004-09-14T17:54:00.000-07:00

Dark as the heavens tonight is my spirit.
Brick upon brick of heaviness my heart screams for air.
Flaming fire snuffed so abrupt is the soul where I found flight.
My face is veiled with the dark shade of loneliness.

In the deepest pit I shall call unto my God, "Save me!"
Does he hear even in this deep filth of sorrow?
What can men do with such reckless hate.
But in the end He will find me. My heart tells me so.

But for a man of little faith what matters is today.
And yesterday is a gallery of gloom.
Horizons seem dark, I am at the bottom of the wheel.
Tomorrow promises new mornings too long to wait upon.

Changes

2004-04-22T03:10:00.000-07:00

When I was young, I lived with my near-age cousins in one roof.
We played a lot. Even though I was often the butt of jokes, we had fun.
But one day, they had to move.
I told myself, "I wished this hadn't happen..."

A few years later, I had a friend next door.
We also played a lot. Building Legos. Even though he was possesive and won't let me go home, we had fun.
But one day, my family had to move.
I told myself, "I wished this hadn't happen..."

A few years later, a monster entered my life.
Lurking in the shadows. I began to see the world around me.
One day, I was utterly distorted.
I told myself, "I wished this hadn't happen..."

A few years later, I stepped into highschool.
I had a lots of friends, good friends. Highschool life is priceless.
But one day, I had to part with them and stand on my own.
I told myself, "I wished this hadn't happen..."

A few years later, my friends at church were perfect.
We would go together here and there. Like there's not tomorrow.
But one day, they had to leave. Leave me alone.
I told myself, "I wished this hadn't happen..."

A few years later, I stepped into college.
I learned to find and express myself. Made lasting friendships. College life is priceless.
But one day, I knew I will part with them too.
I told myself, "I wished this hadn't happen..."

If these hadn't happen, I wouldn't be the person I am today.
Hardships are unevitable but pain is only in the mind which for now I must endure.
As the saying goes, "This too shall pass."

Linger

2003-01-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

I would love to be close to you,
but I'm afraid you won't notice;
I would love to be sweet to you,
but I'm afraid you won't indulge;

I would love to speak with you,
but I'm always in loss of words;
I would love to stay with you,
but my self keeps pulling me away.

But know this,

Your smile keeps my world spinning,
Your radiance is my cherished prize;
I long to wrap you in my arms -
As the sea covers the shores.
Just say the word and I'll be near.

(Circa 2003)

Realization

2002-01-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

I have come face to face with fear
In this room of total disillusionment
With no one to turn to
No one to catch me
I have to face this on my own.
I must fall forward,
All these times of masquerade
Reality begins to sink like a knife
Inching my calloused flesh
Tearing my secret place
In search of the child
But no one can find it
I have grown into a stone-cold creature
Never to love again

(Circa 2002)

Back in My Arms

1998-01-01T00:00:00.001-08:00

Just like fall in June
I feel like withering in no time
But I believe sometime very soon
We'll be together if I wait for that time

You'll be back in my arms again
Just like the time we're in love and when
We hold each other like lovers do
I love you more than anyone knew

You'll be back in my arms again
Soon than time can imagine
I'm waiting till the end
To be back in your arms again

(Circa 1998)

Those Who Love the Most

1998-01-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

It just has been another lonely day
To let go of someone who takes your breath away
How can they understand how to play the game
When those who love the most always take the pain

Why do I always take the pain when everything's alright
Why do I always take the fall when my heart feels so right
All I have to do is to let go
And let the pain remain

How can you easily forget what you first said to me
"Never let go of someone who'd be the best for me"
But how did it happen, everything seemed to fall apart
You left me nothing but a weeping heart

There are many challenges that we had endured
But how did we ever let this tear us in two
There are many questions the only answer is to let go
And to leave the past a memory and find someone else

(Circa 1998)

Two Steps Back

1990-01-01T00:00:00.002-08:00

I was hated. You loved me.
I cried. You consoled me.
I was rejected. You accepted me.
I stumbled. You helped me get up.

You loved me. I was changed.
You consoled me. I smiled.
You accepted me. I belonged.
You helped me. I strove harder.

Then a storm came,
Water gushed and plunged into the deep.
I never knew not.
But I never resisted, I drowned.

I was changed. I was hated.
I smiled. I cried.
I belonged. I felt rejected again.
I strove harder. I stumbled even more painful.

What now, Lord?
I feel no one really listens to me anymore.
I wait for Your instruction. I need Your help, forgiveness and love.
Are You listening?

(Circa 1990s)

Slumber

1990-01-01T00:00:00.001-08:00

A peaceful sleep is God's blessing
A sweet reward for the tired spirit
Slumber into the arms of the Sandman
And dream of castles in sinking sand
Ravens hover over the dark terrain
And the moonlight shines aglow
Sad as the rain clouds may fall
The boy is undisturbed amidst the chaos of silence

(Circa 1990s)

He Is Not Here

1990-01-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

He is not here... He has risen!

Don't let your hearts be troubled
He has rose from the grave
By His ressurection
and His death we are saved

He is not here... He has risen!

So come now don't be ashamed
He is calling you
As His sons and daughters
With a life anew

He is here... in our midst!
He has risen... and He lives.

(Circa 1990s)